okae so the A results are finally out. all that pent up stress and worries have been finally released. but has it decided my future? somehow i dun really feel so, in fact it still feels open and even more uncertain when i think about it. its not that i did particularly well, coz seriously i'm not happy, i hardly ever am, and well i hardly know where i'm gonna go from here. i mean if i did like get 4As juz like the other bothering arnd maybe 800+ , i think more pple who took the A levels this yr (yes there r really that many, juz 420 r from HC), i really wonder how the hell i can get into a faculty of my choice. and there r also the many many more who got 3As. its really sad coz i can't say i belong to any of these groups. so much for those fucking S papers. basically i got 2As , for maths and chemistry (a suprise) and 2Bs for physics (a disaster) and biology. maths S merit and phy S ungraded (yes fuck physics). ahh..... somehow or another i also find it strange, there are THAT many pple with 4 As but yet its like out of the pple i know, or are my close friends, very few of them got 4As. its like, i'm surrounded by pple who dun perform either, i dunno who is affecting who and its like i want to be sad but also can't be. i did better then them and so i can't be sadder then them. most of them r putting up a strong front, thats what i feel coz everybody does wanna do well but aiyah, i also dunno how to express what i wanna say. ah sianzzz....... tml still gotta go back to camp already. again i have to put on the same pretense coz i heard most of my section pple also didn't do too well, as to their expectations. so well.... gotta act happy and encourage them blah blah blah. if i show sadness they'll juz feel worse coz they did worse. at least thats what i think. so well...... dunno how lar. think i'll juz heck care, its not like i'll boast or anything can already. ah 16k tml.... dunno how to tahan..... but after that can book out again. stupid but shiok.
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